but
now its no need to regret.. or feel depressed J now that you’re out of my
life I can start building my new heart walls.. I will take down all of those
memories that I made with you, all those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks,
months and years I spend counting and waiting for you..all of them I am
throwing it all away, it’ll take time I know, but I believe I will forget..
forget about that hope.. maybe I’ll remember from time to time those memories,
but at that time those feelings and life will be no more.. and I’ll just smile
thinking about it.. about how foolish I was, like a little child waiting for a
candy to drop from the sky.. at that time my wall will be filled with memories
of colours all around me, and I’ll find that one person that God had for me.. J I will
find ‘you’ wherever you are.. J
For
the first time I feel that I can breath.. really for the first time.. J I’m
grateful now that it happened.. now only I can take my heart back and feel life
once more.. once more feel it beats inside of me for myself.. beating excitedly
wanted to feel the bursting life outside that it never felt before.. all that
time that it missed and locked itself up in there with those memories and fake
hope.. now I’ve let go.. it starting to beat lively once more… slowly senses
are awaken again, can feel, see, taste and hear the world outside.. feel other
hearts around me.. everything started to be awaken one by one.. J I feel
very happy because I’ve been freed from a decade of heartache and longing.. now
its no more.. and I’m free to feel for myself.. now I can be my very best not
for anyone else but mainly for myself.. J live for God that is living inside of me.. and be
what He wants me to be, truly who I am and will be..
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